Sunday, August 31, 2014

Moving On . . .


     Recently, we moved to a new home.

We boxed our treasures and dear friends packed them into large vehicles, which took them to a preplanned location.
Now .. we are unpacked, treasures and us in place in our new, comfortable little home.

A few days before our move, my mother also packed her treasures into boxes, and left the great state of New Jersey, where we all grew up, and moved to PA, 
closing an era for us all.


Goodbye Vineland
Mom and Grace enjoying a final day in O.C.




How strange, 
                     our center, our 'home-base' .. gone.

And . . we adjust and move on.

Mom is also wonderfully happy and settled in her new home.

     With both of our moves, we had time . .
Time to plan, to discard, to organize, to pack, to lease, to say goodbye . .
to unload, to arrange, to settle in.

We carried our treasures with us.


Today, I remember -

     the thousands in Syria, and in Iraq . . .whose unplanned moves have been forced;
whose treasures were all left behind
who had no idea where they'd go, where they would end up and for how long;
who still have no idea what lies ahead.


 . . who are trying to trust in Him for the answers, to everything!



Join me, please, in praying for them in their uncertain journeys,
and for their safety and provision, their strengthening and that during this time, they may find the greatest of treasures in His love, and care.

Hebrews 11 - By Faith . .




Compliments of BBC news


Sunday, June 29, 2014

WHAT DO YOU SEE ? ? . . .


ABANDONED . . ?

- OR -  

SOUGHT AFTER



DISCARDED . . . ?
 OR
REDEEMED !




REJECTED. . . ?
OR
CHOSEN !


NUISANCE . . . ?

OR
Precious in HIS Sight!!


" . . . for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."
Matthew 19: 14




Monday, June 2, 2014





Thinking of Haiti today,
and its precious children 





Prayer for our Children 
(Amy Carmichael)

Father, hear us, we are praying,

Hear the words our hearts are saying;
We are praying for our children.

Keep them from the powers of evil,
From the secret, hidden peril;
Father, hear us for our children.

From the whirlpool that would suck them,
From the treacherous quicksand, pluck them;
Father, hear us for our children.

From the wordling’s hollow gladness,
From the sting of faithless sadness,
Father, Father, keep our children.

Through life’s troubled waters steer them;
Through life’s bitter battle cheer them;
Father, Father, be Thou near them.

Read the language of our longing,
Read the wordless pleadings thronging,
Holy Father, for our children.

And wherever they may bide,
Lead them Home at eventide.


Wednesday, May 28, 2014

My One True Desire

"Dear Lord, 
I do not ask that Thou shouldst give me some high work of Thine, 
some noble calling or some wondrous task.
Give me a little hand
to hold in mine."
(Anonymous)

Sunday, May 18, 2014

Sunday Morning Ponderings




Sometimes . . . I GRIEVE for my Egyptian, multi-level, brilliantly colored,
 spacious top of the world home with massive, plant-adorned balcony.


Sometimes I LONG for the simplicity of life in Africa, where we walked peaceful dirt roads, shared by donkey carts, and everyone had plenty of time for a visit and cup of tea.


Sometimes . . . I TREMBLE at the plight of women in countries I used to call home - sentenced to death for their faith in God, or abducted from school and forced to be brides of unknown men. 

HOW do I 'speak up for' THEM, Lord?'
And then . . 


Sometimes I QUESTION the ironies of life . . somewhere in the world, a mama or papa easily drops off a child at an orphanage and walks away, 
        while somewhere  far,  far  away, a Mama and Papa are turning their lives upside down in passionate attempt to rescue that same child, abandoned so easily.


Sometimes I REMEMBER the little noses and toes of children left behind, stuffed in orphanages where resources and space are scare,  and love has run dry . . and I want to kiss their little heads and pray over them.

Sometimes, I CRAVE speaking Arabic, because words in my mother tongue simply aren't enough.
                               الحمد لله

Sometimes, I WAKE thinking of millions of Syrian refugees, people just like you and I, and panic -wondering what's next for them?
 No home, no school, no clinics, no food, no work . ..and I am ready to grab my child and rush off to settle among them, in attempt to help . . 

Sometimes I FEAR I'll forget . . .  the great needs of the suffering world and the poverty of life of those with whom I lived and worked for so many years  . . and then settle for a life of stability, safety and comfort.

I remember them with tears, and hear Him saying . . . .
"Blessed are you poor, for yours is the Kingdom of Heaven!"


Sometimes I WONDER . . .what difference can I make for the suffering, impoverished, 
the orphaned.  . . by just adopting one, or two children. 

One or two, and still there are an estimated 153,000,000. 

(Sometimes . .. I ponder waaay too much)

Our time on Earth is so very short, friends .. and we have but one chance to make a difference . .

Pray often.   GO!    Give generously, 
support fully - others who are doing these things . . .

(with respect & gratitude to the Peck family)

https://rally.org/nancyesposito

Friday, May 9, 2014

Two worlds / Conflicting Realities

                      Recently,
                  . . . my daughter and I discovered the TV series, "Once Upon a Time" which we watch  now and then via Netflix . . as we catch up with the rest of the world.

The Mad Hatter, in the episode dedicated to his life as he struggles with "past meets present," spoke a profound quote that has been the cry of my heart and mind for the past year.
"It's hard enough to live in a land where you don't belong, but knowing it . . holding conflicting realities in your head  . . will drive you mad"
Mad Hatter
(episode: Hat Trick)

We live with conflicting realities, day after day, in a world where one reality in no way meets the other, and because of that . . hardly anyone cares to ask about the other.
And so, I write, and I share this great dichotomy with you, friends.


Once Upon a Time-
I'd throw my heels in a backpack, along with my stash for the day, and would walk half an hour to work (and home again later), through the beautiful villa-lined back streets of my corner of Cairo - which I'd share with donkey carts, hundreds of school children, cars, rickshaws, busses and more.
Now, I hop into my car  and join the masses rushing here and there . . just to drive a few minutes down the street to my workplace. 
And NO ONE is to be found outside walking, anywhere.

Once Upon a Time- barefooted, dirty faced children followed me through the streets and to the entrance of the Metro Market . . begging for some change or a hand-out of spare groceries. Crowds of uniform-clad school girls would surround me, often greeting with hand shakes or kisses on alternate cheeks . . eager to practice the few words of English they proudly knew.
Now, I dare NOT talk with a child I don't know, or greet with more than a "Hello" - and I am not allowed to even hug the sweet children I work with each day.

Once Upon a Time- we drove out of the big city (Khartoum) to our orphanage a few times weekly, over rickety bridges that rose just above the powerful Nile waters . . away away . . through desert roads where displaced people lived in houses of sand.  . . where we would often stop at Mom and Pop stores to barter for fruit (very rare in those days!), fill our car with kilos of bananas and anything that might have nutritional value for 'our kids.'
We'd be greeted at the gate by starving, brown, happy faces ready to unload the car and begin a day of fun!
Now, during lunch duty days at work, I walk around the cafeteria watching well nourished children linger over trays filled with yummy food and then toss 3/4 of it in the trash can when lunch ends. 
 Daily, I remember . . . I see the faces of half naked, starving children who would LOVE to eat what falls off of those trays and into our trash cans. . .


Once Upon a Time- in the Winter when the waters were low, my daughter and I would walk down the street to the Nile, past the brick factory and down the embankments - in order to spend the day wading in the sparkling Nile waters with our friends. 
What a paradise! 
Simple, free pleasures that filled our hearts with such JOY and bonded us with our Sudanese neighbors. Pockets of white sandy beaches cleverly placed by God all around us; horses, donkeys and an occasional monkey bathing in the water; tiny "Nile Taxi" boats floating nationals over to mysterious Tutti Island, lined by palm trees. 
      Bliss, Bliss Bliss . .
Now, our excitement comes from an occasional walk down the street to Dunkin Donuts, for a hot coffee and some sugary treat (I secretly LOVE to go so I can visit the owners - my Gujarati Indian friends- make them laugh with my attempts at speaking Hindi, and where I hope to hear other customers speaking Arabic among themselves!)

Once Upon a Time- though an oppressive 120 degrees outside, I covered my body from head to toe, (wouldn't dare to EVER wear pants) and walked with my dainty lady-shoes through dirt roads to the market . . where sellers would sit by their piles of veggies and challenge me to spend 5 times as much as anyone else for a bag of their rotten tomatoes!
Now, I hop across the highway to Shop Rite where I walk into a temperature controlled environment, fill my cart easily with any fruit or veggies I want, 
and STILL PAY TOO MUCH for them.   :O)


 Once Upon a Time- I used to walk up and down six flights of stairs (a few times a day) to and from our little paradise at the top of the world in our corner of Cairo, in a building without an elevator. 
Once a month, I would put rent money in a basket, secure it under a large rock, and let it down down down through the window, skillfully past the top of the trees, to where my landlord (who refused to walk up those stairs even once monthly) would take his money and replace it with a receipt, written in sloppy Arabic.
NOW, I am not allowed to pay my rent in cash, or personal check! I must go online and transfer money from my account to the company that owns my apartment complex. 
I don't even know who my landlord is!

Once Upon a Time- "visiting friends" meant trusting a taxi driver to take me on narrow roads, around frightening mountain cliffs, and down through breathtaking valleys . .. to bombed out buildings riddled with bullet holes, where families made their homes in whatever remains they could find of once luxurious buildings. I found more warmth of family, comfort and hospitality in those shells of a building they'd call home .. than anywhere else since! (Lebanon)
Once Upon a Time, a day wouldn't go by without the neighborly aroma of Arabic Coffee and fragrances of Shi Sha smoke filling the air!
Now, while I'm surrounded by people, I couldn't tell you what the inside of the homes of most of my neighbors look like, or their names . . and I share walls with them!

Once Upon a Time . . .I lived in a land of stairways; stairways that would take me anywhere I needed to go. Some, would wind from my the door of my building, down through neighborhoods and across back alleyways . . to the heart of the great city of Amman; where thousands of people lines the streets, men with large ornate devices on their backs would fill a cup with tea for you; where life would pause when the call to prayer sounded  . . so that hundreds of men could face Mecca, remove their shoes, kneel and bow with faces to the ground, in united prayer.
Where . . . your journey's end would lead you to the impressive remains of an ancient amphitheater - where the past and the present come together still, in joyous celebration!

OH the richness of these memories. 
Oh to be able to say with the Apostle Paul, 
"I have learned to be content in every circumstance!  . . "

How thankful I am to even have these conflicting realities to share with you, today.

Blessings and the peace of Christ to you.
Nancy














Sunday, May 4, 2014

True Fasting


“Is not this the fast that I choose: to loose the bonds of wickedness, to undo the straps of the yoke, to let the oppressed go free, and to break every yoke? Is it not to share your bread with the hungry and bring the homeless poor into your house; when you see the naked, to cover him, and not to hide yourself from your own flesh? Then shall your light break forth like the dawn, and your healing shall spring up speedily; your righteousness shall go before you; the glory of the Lord shall be your rear guard. (Isaiah 58:6-8)